“stand in the form of Christ”

I’ve heard a hundred hours breaking from the inside

crushing a choice left far behind

i tried to understand the future

lay still across  the sky

drop apart every word of regret

still i stand still as a witness to God

trapped at the table where my voice is discarded

but still I can’t forgive myself

ask for absolution to stand in the form of Christ

to be my guide into the future

when the disciples burn the candles

look towards the sky

are you every dream in my hand?

beyond every inscription from Heaven

we walk to stand still

children lost in the parade

every innocence pinned deep in value

to ascertain the turmoil written in my eyes

to glance at the table towards perfection

did I burn my prize too hard?

stories hidden with too much truth

when lies can’t be hidden in the dark

I can’t forget my mistakes

if they shine the light from heaven

will you ever listen?

“press a million doors open”

are we close to getting up

are we close to burning out from the inside

take a breath 

I have found an answer inside your eyes

Break these lines tearing us apart

Capture my heart before it’s too late

Run away into the point where everything matters at once

Have you got inside my head

Have you turned me upside-down?

Did I lose grip with everything that mattered?

Did I forget how to live?

Did I forget how to breathe?

Sit up against the burning sky

Stand up from a million points of light

Are you the one inside my head?

Are you the one that got away?

Are you the one running back and forth through my dreams?

Wake up against a beating heart

Is it too late to claim my sanity?

Are we too tired to remember our names?

Are we too tired to dream into the future

Waiting outside in the pouring rain

Waiting outside with a burning instinct

Press a million doors open with your eyes

“in love with a ghost”

In love with a ghost

Afraid of the world given to me

Breaking down a memory ward

Voices falling from heaven

Locked in trespass…a room…a prison meant to carry on

Faces scattering watching time burn

Sketching out the hidden souls before they disappear 

Look towards the sky but it’s all allusion 

Mistakes filmed beyond sources agonized through experiment  

Perspectives damages

Treating a disease falling from the asylum pushed past incurable regret 

Disordered thoughts avoiding destination 

Too blind to see the world

Voices demanding solitary confession

Collecting desires…pushing towards the hill

Treating the broken corners driven by unstable minds

Truth slipping away

Empathy washing away their skin

At the gates I can see their faces

Voices breaking down these fences of my heart

Shaking a bell to heaven…don’t let it burn from implication

falling bricks

I’m at the edge dreaming fast past understanding the turn around

They tell it to their faces melting away with persistence

Glitter down 

Glitter past emotion

Light prevails whispering secrets lost by betrayal

On top of the ocean when we fell down the escape magician 

bending light against colors pushing value

Rising and falling

Fire touches the edge without resistance 

(Laughing at tomorrow without a trace)

Pick pocket cold black detentions

Static mesmerizing light 

Dusting off prints of temptation standing too tall

Teaching breath to breath fundamental

Breaking free of confusion hitting time with unobtainable control

Losing touch

Losing value

Losing lies

Losing in the rain where we catch the final train

Carry ahead to build this fire deeper and deeper

Chisels away hot and cold

Stare at heartbeat beating faster and faster

Impossible to regret

Impossible to lose

Impossible to break the whisper in the schoolyard 

touch the visions of a spirit ahead of its time

Puncture the colors and break like falling bricks

A glimpse blue – damaged secrets trapped in voices coloring the sparks behind their dreams

Distracted and spinning

I heard you in memory lapse

I heard you in the oceans draining into lucidity

Peel away the edge of nights faulting sanity

a hope beating faster and faster

I heard you reach out from the distance
all the cars crashing inside my head
can we ever go deeper than this true aspect
multiply half a mind and shatter past mistakes
fog pressing under my skin
prevent a million relapses with one disguise
hurt breaking from the mirror in your mind
don’t try to stand around to watch it all fall inside
drive a hundred million miles on the icy shores
not a day left damaged to struggle against
watch the colors forecast a hope beating faster and faster
we shelter the world stuck in isolation

“flags in your eyes”

to witness a loss of betrayal
push up against the freezing colors
a millions lights inside your head
coming too close to the stars
whisper to the back of sleep
speaking endlessly
slipping into another world
I hear them calling
take my aim so far away
noises wake us from slumber
lay down these dreams
hands that hurt to familiarize
take me into paradise
circle the injection coming too close to forgetting

a numbness aching like a gift
press it all too late
running through the wind
I hear you call out like a heat that intensifies through a star
turning back time to find you there
ice breaking at my skin from time to time
I catch you from beyond flying all the flags into your eyes
when you broke into paradise
shout against the memories shaking me down
follow the freedom marching on her back
confusion breaking through my heart
translating every emotion driving me home
color the paper dolls
lock this gift away
don’t consume it all
I think I’m falling too deep
lock my heart away with a key
keep changing past perfection

“words lost in purity”

light up the staircase of her memory
climb with precision catching pictures falling in the dark
all you meant to me is swimming so far away
into so many pieces I am immobilized
fly through the room in procession
losing atmosphere I choose a new way out
to hide away from the night and fall into the light
you stand still breaking clean from every trace of sin
into a new view a million colors crashing from the night
separate confusion from ambition burning deep inside

walking through the streets
faces with half calculated expressions
move free but don’t go away until it all makes sense
stand across cathedral bells and towards the future
a spark to ignite inspiration yearning past school yards
all around we move through comprehension one more time
every emotion falling from the inside
words lost in purity

“numb your fingers”

stumble out of focus burning for new memories
lost again to this silence
press my face against the window to feel time
I lose directions all at once
a value so introspective
they wash away the future with just a glance
secrets burning through the wind
choose all the colors yearning from the light
write down the definitions to fight for your life
pace up and down the trampoline held up by your youth
spin across the wires to numb your fingers from retrospect
I see you through the crowd
you wear so many masks to hide from it all
spitting out a new frequency in blue and green
sit still in this isolation and face the wall
crumple up words on paper until you find truth
I saw you with chemicals in your voice
one more chance to spin across disbelief to make it right

“to win this battle & conquer it all”

i see the faces through the window trying to get past broken memories

i feel time slipping & wasting up inside

call another stranger to dream it all away

words are broken against the wall

too tired to let this feeling go

signs are paved like magnetism

shift the desire into a new meaning today

colors cycle through time

i hear the voices call me from the ground

count the numbers like timezones to a million dimensions

step through this loss like an epidemic

shake my skin to feel alive before second glance

I hear it all coming alive like photosynthesis

a shock hits hard against their faces

can’t wake from this daydream

can’t force myself to change obliteration

i see a million colors bursting lost days with freedom

we climb on top of this hill with hope rising past every achievable point

i see you lock your future so bright to claim it all

don’t want to finish in second place

don’t want to let them put me away

to win this battle & conquer it all

i see the colors so abstract from a million points of view

coming alive in so many different ways

“obliterate the colors on the wall”

I see you in the distance

run down pinned dreams

in the dark too hard to focus on recreation

memories flash by your head

scared to take cover

flash the light but you don’t see me this time

all the colors falling from your head

I see you strike memories like matchsticks

every burning ignition to color my days away

too dark to contrast

out of focus towards determination

too numb to feel

too dark to contrast

every radiation point hitting us harder and harder

every face we can’t recollect

a sudden impact in our heads

crash down the obliterated sky

miles away police scan for observation

he pays the price for the vices lined up against registered skin

all the chemicals in his hands to ingest the past away

to strike the match against the wall

to withstand every word far behind

to strike the headlights to understand

don’t know which way to turn

don’t want to obliterate the colors on the wall