the buildings we used to break
empty rooms silent and half-focused
posters on the wall cast my dreams goodbye
notice every detail before we slip away
a doorway where we found hope
broken glass left on the floor
colors…guilt ridden
blue days keep me alive
whispers shaken with disguise
speak in electric tongues
when instinct feels experimental
when I tear myself through the window
did I catch a piece of your sanity?
pacing up and down this maze
I lock down my heart
To wait for the day
when you can clean the darkest frustration
scrubbing the bruises from my veins
like a batting cage they take their turn
I can see colors burning through the distance
breath in and out
they inhale every secret left inside my mind
a million words are exhaled
but I can’t translate a blind man’s burden
run through this glass covered maze
skin broken to bone
men watch in uniform
they shake the locks with cruelty
shut my eyes with polaroids under every scar
flash every emotion away
their hands shake at they keys
will they unlock the doors?
shaking through the floors
numbness taking over my skin
a loss of perfection
a loss of idealization
stop the heartbeat and take a second step
chemicals lost inside my head
an arrow splintering the details
a cause for alarm
a cause to disarm
ingest years and years from your veins
diffuse the crisis left hanging from your eyes
brace my back with window panes
crack every outcome like determination
look through the floating horsemen
run the bay to find you upside-down
every color carved through the wooden trunks
ageless color
shake the hidden truth from each branch
can I find you when I turn away?
can I find you through every horses’ step?
my madness, my true instinct
my illusion, lost in delusion
gallop against the sand pressing so far against your skin
jump through the carriage tumbling clear into your heart
telegraphic instinct
Shattered Mind 