reward system

when I tear myself through the window

did I catch a piece of your sanity?

pacing up and down this maze

I lock down my heart

To wait for the day

when you can clean the darkest frustration

scrubbing the bruises from my veins

like a batting cage they take their turn

I can see colors burning through the distance

breath in and out

they inhale every secret left inside my mind

a million words are exhaled

but I can’t translate a blind man’s burden

run through this glass covered maze

skin broken to bone

men watch in uniform

they shake the locks with cruelty

shut my eyes with polaroids under every scar

flash every emotion away

their hands shake at they keys

will they unlock the doors?

Pictures I Can’t Keep

spinning down the hill

a careless mistake

when we used to pretend

fingers crumble in silence

medication catching your veins

when numbness blurs every day away

ride away in motorcars

stumble in the darkness

but you’ve tumbled into a wall

when the shadows come alive

I take a look in the mirror

Look for treatment no matter the cost

Worms crawl inside my head but I can’t capture the memories of summer

When you lay in the distance

picking at your skin

too numb too feel

too bitter to taste

too hungry to eat

Look down the mountain side

when I watch all the dreams spin into days

Past mistakes chain me up inside

Figures break on the inside

color the broken days away

Pictures I can’t keep

Pictures I can’t keep

Words I can’t taste

Deep inside your mouth

Frequencies I can’t adore

When I can’t understand the taste inside my mouth